WHERE YOU ARE
TIMELINE
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INTERFERENCE POINT
810,000,000 BCE
TETHER
fungal
42°55’20.4”S
147°15’34.5”E
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You are here.
The way this works, as far as you can tell, is not at all like time travel. Instead it is as though your consciousness – your self? – is a ball bearing in a pinball machine being shot across a pockmarked quantum plane, falling into drop targets marked ‘Other Lives’. You try on these bodies, these other versions of you, and each one fits, and each one is new and immeasurably different, and is also still you.
Right now you’re not even sure you’re an animal organism. You are experiencing the profoundly unsettling sensation of being alive without a heartbeat. That invisible rhythm section that has always been your bodily soundtrack is loud in its absence. In its place is a tide so quiet as to be imperceptible. Stuff is moving in you but to no organising principle. If you were botanical, surely you’d be feeling the pull of the chlorophyll in your cells? Or the sucking of the sunlight against the fluid holding you upright? But you are sure you are no child of botany. You’ve got some weirder shit going on.
The light is dim. The air is still and damp. You sense the trees sharing carbon in your mycelium and you know distantly the cool rude light filtering through the canopy. You taste dead wood and dead flesh (delectable) but you couldn’t say where you taste it. From somewhere out there – or is it somewhere in here? – softly, throbbingly, without clarity, you can hear voices.
The body you’re in can’t move. And yet the sensation of movement is profound, only it’s not movement through the damp air but movement through the sweet earth – how can you feel that? Who is doing the feeling?
Your instinct is to take a deep breath but those instincts don’t suit this vessel and instead you find yourself sucking up something from beneath you, somehow, through limbs cemented to that sweet rotting earth. Into your head rushes not oxygen but a flood of thought, voice, intimate otherness:
Praise our fruitful bodies let all our actions be in the sanctity of the spores the fruit sprouted the flower, the Network is growing, our cooperation is good. Our team is very popular. The wind serpent sings, the little cattle blow the trumpet, the body rises and bears fruit and our work of praise is a sacred path that brings happiness to the ends of the earth, is a holy way that brings joy to the ends of the earth, Queen of our best path, death, birth, new death and rebirth.
Like a light turning on now you can feel the spores trembling beneath your gills, feel how desperate they are to lift onto that damp air and take your life, your joy, our life, our joy, with them – to make the network greater, to expand, to tether the hyphae to themselves in a net that traps the world –
But resist! The part of you that remembers why you’re here knows: he is not here. He can not be here. He is not a spore, he is just a little bodily mammalian boy, he was never here, there was never a place for him with this version of you, the tragedy of it, he never felt the joy the glory the network the singing worms the trumpets below the ground.
It is an effort but you let go of your hold on the spongy cells of this body. The pinball machine lurches to life. You’re rushing on to that garish quantum plane again, the momentum of desperation propelling you, and the lever rears back to fling you into the void once more.
To look for Cay in the wattles, go to Timeline VII
To look for Cay underwater, go to Timeline II
To look for Cay at the tracks, go to Timeline VI
To look for Cay in the hive, go to Timeline XX
To look for Cay in the park, go to Timeline III
To look for Cay in ????, go to Timeline IV
To stop looking for Cay, go to Timeline 0
The way this works, as far as you can tell, is not at all like time travel. Instead it is as though your consciousness – your self? – is a ball bearing in a pinball machine being shot across a pockmarked quantum plane, falling into drop targets marked ‘Other Lives’. You try on these bodies, these other versions of you, and each one fits, and each one is new and immeasurably different, and is also still you.
Right now you’re not even sure you’re an animal organism. You are experiencing the profoundly unsettling sensation of being alive without a heartbeat. That invisible rhythm section that has always been your bodily soundtrack is loud in its absence. In its place is a tide so quiet as to be imperceptible. Stuff is moving in you but to no organising principle. If you were botanical, surely you’d be feeling the pull of the chlorophyll in your cells? Or the sucking of the sunlight against the fluid holding you upright? But you are sure you are no child of botany. You’ve got some weirder shit going on.
The light is dim. The air is still and damp. You sense the trees sharing carbon in your mycelium and you know distantly the cool rude light filtering through the canopy. You taste dead wood and dead flesh (delectable) but you couldn’t say where you taste it. From somewhere out there – or is it somewhere in here? – softly, throbbingly, without clarity, you can hear voices.
The body you’re in can’t move. And yet the sensation of movement is profound, only it’s not movement through the damp air but movement through the sweet earth – how can you feel that? Who is doing the feeling?
Your instinct is to take a deep breath but those instincts don’t suit this vessel and instead you find yourself sucking up something from beneath you, somehow, through limbs cemented to that sweet rotting earth. Into your head rushes not oxygen but a flood of thought, voice, intimate otherness:
Praise our fruitful bodies let all our actions be in the sanctity of the spores the fruit sprouted the flower, the Network is growing, our cooperation is good. Our team is very popular. The wind serpent sings, the little cattle blow the trumpet, the body rises and bears fruit and our work of praise is a sacred path that brings happiness to the ends of the earth, is a holy way that brings joy to the ends of the earth, Queen of our best path, death, birth, new death and rebirth.
Like a light turning on now you can feel the spores trembling beneath your gills, feel how desperate they are to lift onto that damp air and take your life, your joy, our life, our joy, with them – to make the network greater, to expand, to tether the hyphae to themselves in a net that traps the world –
But resist! The part of you that remembers why you’re here knows: he is not here. He can not be here. He is not a spore, he is just a little bodily mammalian boy, he was never here, there was never a place for him with this version of you, the tragedy of it, he never felt the joy the glory the network the singing worms the trumpets below the ground.
It is an effort but you let go of your hold on the spongy cells of this body. The pinball machine lurches to life. You’re rushing on to that garish quantum plane again, the momentum of desperation propelling you, and the lever rears back to fling you into the void once more.
To look for Cay in the wattles, go to Timeline VII
To look for Cay underwater, go to Timeline II
To look for Cay at the tracks, go to Timeline VI
To look for Cay in the hive, go to Timeline XX
To look for Cay in the park, go to Timeline III
To look for Cay in ????, go to Timeline IV
To stop looking for Cay, go to Timeline 0